The Foolish and Wise Parts of Yourself

How do we get to know ourselves, to understand the dialogues within our everyday minds that can reveal the answers to our deepest questions? We can start by prayer and listening to the dialogue that is constantly going on between our eternal essence and the everyday mind.

Praying for the inner things, for happiness, calm, healing, balance, spiritual growth is the first step. Praying for a lover or partner, for a better job, for more money, a better place to live, praying for material benefits is ok, but be aware that when you pray for these things they can often happen quickly and not always in the way you expect them to.

Prayers for the material world operate on a different process than the inner world. The inner world takes longer to respond; prayers dealing with money are much faster, as you pray give yourself a pause to feel what your prayer is about. You might think you are praying for money, but your underlying intention could be for comfort, security, and safety.

These are not money but people confuse them with money and money cannot really provide these in a lasting way. As you gain skill in prayer you open up your ability to communicate deeply within yourself and too the world around you. As you open yourself, you will inevitable hit that subtle obstacle, the chattering and fearful mind caused by the daily interaction with the world.

This chattering mind does not want to stop its ranting because it knows its time is up, it is fearful of losing its grip, its fearful of becoming something better, constructive, integrated. So it will put up a fight. Imagine it as a dialogue something like this: It’s a dialogue between the foolish and wise part of your self. Sit back and listen to the conversation.

“What is the point of praying, no one listens. What’s the point of meditating I just get a sore bum, trying, and I sometimes feel worse than when I started, I can’t concentrate and when I try a song I really hate starts going around and around in my head!”

“Be still, there is not a point to praying but a communion between your Self and the universe. All of life listens. As you start, all that causes you confusion will boil up and spill, out just like a pot left to boil, but as you take it from the heat, you can heal.”

“Be still!! Its easy for you to say, you don’t have to go to work, or look after the kids or pay the bills, I am to anxious to be still, I am too busy, I don’t have time to be still, this is making me really angry.’

“I am in everything you do, and feel, in your children, in your job and the boss you dislike, in the untrustworthy colleague, in your anxiety, in your problems at home, in your secrets, I am even in your anger, in the loneliness of your heart, I am there.’

“Who are you then?’

“I am the deepest part of you, that which even in your darkest hour you seek, even when you feel far from love or happiness, safety or friendship, I am there. I am there you call to in prayer and that which is when you meditate.’

“Look, I asked you a question…a simple question, who are you?”

“I am you, the all knowing unsullied light of you, as you truly are and always have and will be.’

“That makes no sense at all, I am in the real world, I have things to do, responsibilities, I am a busy person.’

“I am you, the all knowing unsullied light of you, as you truly are and always have and will be.’

“ I have things to do. Things to worry about, concerns, my future, my past, my finances, my relationship, I have things to do.”

“I am you, the all knowing unsullied light of you, as you truly are and always have and will be.’

And so the internal often unheard conversation goes on, until something in our life goes pear-shaped and we are left with only what is within us while everything we thought we had, loved or was disappears as if it never was. In a sense, it really was.
Have you found yourself in a situation like that, even if for a terrible scary moment?
Inside of the exterior that we give to the world what is there? What is within you?
Do you know? Prayer helps you to find out through this sacred process of communication.